I woke up yesterday to a HazMat situation about 1.5 miles from my house. I found this out because in the morning, I get up and do yoga while watching the news. It's a good way for me to check the weather [and finding out which way the wind is blowing when there is a HazMat situation nearby is pretty fucking critical] and also see what has been deemed important enough to be reported on first thing in the morning. It also helps me get through doing the yoga, because oh my god, how fucking boring. [I have grown enough to actually turn off the tv during the "quiet meditation" portion of yoga at the end of my workout, or whatever it's called. Instead, I spend that time trying to think of nothing, while simultaneously thinking, "Just breathe, in and out, I've never had an In-n-Out burger, it sounds so porny, stop it, just breathe, don't think about stuff, ugh, I need to do something about that pile of stuff in the office, I'd love to get a sofa or a chaise for the office, stop thinking, just breathe, just do this until you hear the husband's shower stop, then you'll know you've done enough meditating for the day, stop thinking, think about breathing, this is so fucking boring, is that the shower turning off? Who cares. I'm done."]
The HazMat situation pretty much set the tone for the rest of the day. Stay indoors, but stay vigilant. I looked outside but was unable to see any clouds of black smoke in my yard. I was also unable to get the weird "Am I tasting poisons in the air?" feeling out of my head. No, not poison. That's probably just mouthwash. I hope.
I spent the day half-assedly getting stuff done - laundry, making bean soup, constantly checking the news sites for updates. I also, for some reason / no reason, was angry with people who I had not spoken to in weeks. So if you felt hatefulness coming at you from my direction, I apologize - I'm truly sorry. Today. I am sorry today for hating on you for no reason. I may not be sorry tomorrow, because I may decide that I'm made at you again for not making me the center of your universe. WTF? You think you're better than me?
I'm available for playdates, if you want.