I strive to be a better person.
I know that I'm pretty fucking awesome all the time, but I often feel like I need to move out of my comfort zone and grow. Isn't that what life's about? Stretching yourself? Making change? Becoming some sort of uberperson? Right?
I've finally admitted to myself that my lack of interest in Nature in the Summertime is complete, and that's o.k. I don't have to want to spend time outside. I can enjoy some fall foliage and a winter walk. That's plenty. I don't need to embrace all the seasons. People don't like Winter, and that seems to be o.k. But hating on Summer? Who does that?
I do that.
For years, I'd feel myself hedging, thinking things like, This is the year I'm going to do more yardwork; or This year, maybe I'll sit on the deck more; or even Oh, if we go on a nice vacation, we should go strolling through gardens. Or, well, NOT camping, for sure, because that's too much, but maybe look at a lake? Because doesn't Summer = Vacation = Nature? A time for the great outdoors?
While I am appreciative of all the fine work Nature does, what with
changing carbon dioxide into oxygen and providing settings for horror
movies, I really, truly, have no interest in being part of it in the summertime.
I am a city girl. My idea of a great Summer vacation is spending time in a climate controlled museum, perhaps looking at pictures of Nature. I'll even go so far as spending time at a pool, so long as there are decent public toilets nearby. I'll go to the beach, but I've got a time limit on that, because of the unrelenting vastness of the Nature surrounding me. That's an awful lot of Nature to handle.
I don't like to eat outside in the Summer. Not for a picnic, not on our nice deck, and certainly not on the sidewalk or makeshift patio at a restaurant. Our ancestors did not climb out of the primordial soup in order to have to eat where they landed. They evolved so that we could embrace indoor seating.
You know that excited feeling everyone gets when the weather starts to turn sunny and mild, and sidewalk seating is suddenly available at every eatery? That giddiness, because it's sunny, and we should enjoy the fresh air? I get the complete opposite feeling, because I know people are going to want to sit outside, to "enjoy the weather" and I just want to enjoy my food. With as little interference from Nature as possible. I'm already going to be searching for any imperfection in my place setting and entree; I can't handle having to be on constant guard from bugs and dogwood spores blowing into my water glass.
So. If you're ever in the area and want to sit in cool, air conditioned comfort, sipping on a drink and maybe peeking through the curtains to check if the sun is still out, please stop by. I'll be on the couch, enjoying Summer my way.