It's been a while, I know.
Let's just jump right in, shall we?
I had a mammogram last week, my very first one, and they found a lump. I had three phone calls from my doctor/my ob-gyn/the mammogram place. That was a fun day at work. They kept saying, "It's probably nothing, but since this is the first one, they want to make sure. And it may be something."
So, I went back, and it was nothing. Thank god. But that was a really long 2 days of waiting until that next appointment.
The weird/sad thing is, I kept telling myself, it's probably nothing, but you should think about what you are doing in your life. And for the most part, it's o.k. I'm doing fun things. But I found I really have shut myself off from everyone.
So this is my small step back. Talking to the world so that I can feel comfortable talking to the people in my life.
Gah, I'm a fuck up.